Comfortable

This was a great day.  The only time I stumbled a bit was at breakfast.  I had a hard time with overeating because I was able to get food cooked in special ways and readily available (no work on my part like every morning at home)  - plus the price just makes you want to eat enough to feel like you're not wasting a lot of money.  It was a buffet, but not just any buffet.  I'm telling you that this was a buffet you dream about!!!  It had anything and everything you could possibly ever desire for breakfast:  made to order omelettes, made to order pancakes and waffles with every topping imaginable, make your own breakfast tacos, oatmeal with all the topping, yogurt with all the toppings, every pastry and muffin and baked good there was, every drink you could think of, all kinds of cereal, sausages, biscuits and gravy and jelly and butter, and a huge fruit spread just to help you start to get the idea.  So, just think about the food addict I am and how I had a hard time controlling my eating with just my safe foods.  I would have been in some serious binge problems if I would let my boundaries down to include the whole buffet.  But, at the same time I'm glad I ate enough to not be hungry for awhile.  Usually I'm hungry every 2 hours at home.  But, since we were playing so hard all day outside this day it was great to not worry or even think about food!

As I went back to my room to change into a swimming suit I was faced with a choice.  Do I put on the cute suit so that I feel like I might not look like a frumpy mom to people, or do I put on my 5 year old long sleeved suit with shorts that is sunblock protective?  I decided that I would rather choose comfort over cuteness.  I have really damaged skin from all of my years of getting burned (in an attempt to get tanned and look cool) so it seemed more appealing to not have to worry about reapplying more and more sunblock all day.

That was the best choice.  We were outside from about 10:15 AM - 6:00 PM.  We were always playing in the lazy river or pools, but they also had some scheduled activities we participated in.  They were always held on the big green lawn in the center of the Resort (and in the sun).  Having more of a sporty swimming suit on allowed me to not once be body conscience when I was playing flag tag or kickball (or watching the kids play sponge tag).  I was able to run and kick and jump and everything without worry about my body being exposed more than I would desire.  One time Titus and Aaris and I joined in a pick up water volleyball game and I held them on my shoulder (sometimes they sat and sometimes they stood on my shoulders) and I didn't have to worry about my suit.  Looking back now I felt very comfortable in my body.  That's a nice feeling!  There were just a couple of times I thought about me not liking my size being a little bigger than I would desire, but most of the time those moments passed quickly because I got moving and active in my body and just enjoyed the comfort of living life!

I have to give a HUGE "thank you" to my parents.  They went above and beyond to make the trip VERY comfortable for me and my chosen eating plan.  First off I am more than appreciative of them for being so generous and sharing their trip with us.  But, secondly, they really made every effort to get me exposed to food choices or environments that were conducive to me not having any problems in finding something good to eat!

Finally, I ended the day with a date with my little buddy, Titus!  It was a complete joy to lay out on the big hotel lawn and watch "Finding Nemo" enjoying the night air with him.  Since I was not worried about what food I was missing out on (free popcorn and free smores) I was able to take the moment in.  Also, Titus was able to cozy up to me and love on me all night.  If I were participating in my food addiction I would have instead been cozying up to some food instead of my sweet boy.  What a special memory that will always be for me.

Thank you God for allowing me to remember what it was like to be care free about my body and just enjoy its strength and health to participate in life and all the fun activities and adventures that can include.