Stressed

Okay so today I was stressed all day.  Stressed about the car and getting it fixed as quickly as possible.  Stressed about packing for another trip. 

Then, as the day progressed those stresses just became more and more compressed and complicated.  I was stressed to hear that our car repair could cost up to $4400.00!!!  That's half of what we paid for it when we bought it 3 months ago!  I was stressed to know if we are going to make this trip it's going to be in Aaron's car with all three kids compressed in the back seat ~ oh, and complete by myself!  Honestly, I don't even want to go on this trip at all any more. 

Throughout the day I had good and bad moment.  The good thing is that I finished reading the book "Made to Crave."  I had a good moment of eating very well until dinner.  Really, I kept wanting to run to food, but I didn't.  I did just try to keep reminding myself that all of this chaos and mess is still under God's control.  He still is sovereign and He still has some reason for all of this happening.  That doesn't mean I'm not frustrated.  That doesn't mean I don't emotionally feel pain that we have to face these stresses.  The bad is that I had a hard time not napping all day.  The bad thing is that I ate 8 more rice cakes than I should have.  The bad thing is that I am procrastinating and don't want to go and clean the kitchen and pack.  I just keep watching t.v. instead of facing all I need to do.

I am basically doing what I have always done:  running or hiding from what seems too hard and/or painful for as long as possible.