Sleep much better and slept until 9:00 AM! Enjoyed singing hymns out of older church song books my father-in-law had brought. It was really nice when my mother-in-law or brother-in-law would harmonize with us as well.
Our little church service was great. The songs were fun to pick out and the kids were able to help out with prayers and passing of the communion, as well as picking some songs to sing as well.
Lunch was HARD because I heard my in-laws talking about how they enjoyed my sister-in-law's humor. We talked about Aaron's patience - except when someone finally crosses one to many lines with him. :) Then everyone started pulling out the desserts. What really ate at me were the Reese's Buttercup Bites. Oh, those are a love of mine. I could feel my flesh just screaming at me to take a bite. I even grabbed the bag and took a huge smell of them. I instead ate 2 rice cakes but they didn't help. I finally just had to walk up to my room. There I fell to the floor and cried. OH, how I wanted to eat something sweet...a true sugar filled dessert! I was almost done crying until the idea of Christmas flashed through my head and I cried even harder thinking of missing out on all of the enjoyable treats.
I called my friend Michelle because she has chosen to live this diet and I knew she was about the only one who could understand my pain. After finally talking with her I walked downstairs and journaled some but went back up for a2 1/2 hour nap.
I woke up disappointed with the day because I had wanted to take the kids swimming but instead we packed up a day early and headed into town for dinner. My brother-in-law chose the restaurant Chuy's where they said our wait would be about 45 minutes, so we went to another mexican restaurant right down the road. We were treated terribly by the hostesses. I eventually asked for the manager. I kept trying to speak with control and kindness yet still get my point across. With knowing how past confrontations have gone I believe I did very well. (Thank you God for helping me remember your words from yesterday!). I even did it with our waiter to warn him of our already heightened frustrations so he could maybe be able to keep our peace as best as possible.
When we finally got back home I forced myself to unpack the kitchen items and my luggage before sitting down. When I did sit down I did so with Aaron to watch a movie. I ate 4 rice cakes and got up to grab more. BUT, I PUT THEM BACK DOWN!! Yeah!!! I grabbed a glass of almond milk instead and that was the end of the potential binge!!!
I think struggling with watching this baby I have committed to keep two days a week all school year is really bothering me and making me very anxious and upset. I don't want to do it but I know we need the money. What should I do????
Listened to the song "Pretty Pretty Please" by Pink. Then, decided I would like to get my hair cut really short like Pink's hair style. Something with some edge. Aaron said he would like it. I think I'm going to do it because it fits how I'm feeling right now in my life: like a tough fighter. I 'm ready to dress for the role I'm needing to play in my life at this point.
Read Joshua 28:19 - 30:20
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